Death is well understood… it’s life that isn’t

New Live Journal

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 06:45:42 GMT

OK I have a new LJ so umm yeah...

New User Name: xSilentscreamzz

OK so umm Check it out and leave me a comment on that one... Lata peeps!

grrrrrrrrrr......

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 01:53:12 GMT

grrrrrrrrrr....IM SO FRIGGIN PISSED OFF AND FRUSTRATED! grrrrrrrrrr!!!!OMFG! i just dont know anymore. w/e! school is tm and i really dont want to go b/c school sux and i hate it with a deep deep passion! ugh. w/e im in a really bad mood so im gonna go... Lata!
Emi

ummm...

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 00:13:32 GMT

ummm... not much to say... bored... i cleaned all day basically and ummm.... i talked to Kim and she never came and saw me today and i highly doubt im gonna see her b/c tonight im sleeping over Nicole's then going to Jokers with her and Robby and Rob and Dawn. so yeah.... then tm night im having a sleepover with Sonya i think... if she ever calls me back i'll find out. ok well i gtg finish cleaning and pack for Nicoles... lata!
Emi

ah.....

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 02:27:16 GMT

i havent updated in a few days b/c i've been hanging out with Nicole and having sleepovers for the past 5 days. hehe. it was fun! now im all by my lonesome self. o well. blah... i dont know wat to say so umm yeah..... OMG! me and Nicole stayed up till like 3am every night till last night we stayed up till fucking 7am! we're friggin crazy! im soooooooooo tired! ugh.... ok well im gonna go b/c im bored and i want to go read. MUCH LOVE!
EMi

at my sisters

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 21:14:16 GMT

ok well im at my sisters and Nikita's here with me and now we're going to watch a scray movie and play BOARD GAMES b/c we're weird like that! LATA NEWMIE PPL! lol much love
Emi

stole this survey from Brenton

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 02:48:34 GMT

(_) been drunk
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) crashed a friend's car (dad's)
(_) been to Japan
(_) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(_) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(_) snuck out of my parent's house
(X) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(_) been arrested
(_) made out with a stranger
(_) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(_) gone on a blind date
(X) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new Orleans
(X) skipped school
(_) slept with a co-worker
(x) cut myself on purpose
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(_) seen someone die
(_) been to Africa
(_) had a crush on one of my xanga friends
(x) Slapped someone I loved
(_) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball
(_) Been to Canada
(_) Been to Mexico
(_) Been on a plane
(_) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(_) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(_) Eaten Sushi
(_) Been snowboarding
(_) Met someone in person from the internet
(_) Been moshing at a concert
(x) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(_) been in an abusive relationship
(_) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
(_) lost a child
(_) gone to college
(_) graduated college
(_) tried killing yourself
(X) taken painkillers
(_) intentionally burned oneself (kinda goes with lighting myself on fire)
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
(_) I went to a prom
(_) I've bungee jumped
(_) I have been to a pop concert
(x) I have dated someone for a year or more
(_) I sold naked pictures of myself
(_) I have been in a car accident
(_) I have slept in the nude
(X) I've hated someone without truely knowing them
(x) I have been to Maine
(x) I've shot a real gun
(_) I've had sex with someone within a week of meeting them
(_) I've made out with someone within 5 days of meeting them
(_) I've done ecstasy
(x) I've gotten my ass kicked
(x) I've been caught smoking
(_) I've milked a cow
(x) I've got in a verbal fight with a teacher
(_) I've cheated on someone
(_) Threw a party at a friends house when they were gone
(_) Done something wit a bf/gf's sibling
(_) Committed a major minor crime
(x) Dated someone older than you are
(_) Gotten in trouble w/ the cops
(x) Ever ran away
(_) Ever given someone a hicky
(_) Ever gotten a hicky
(_) Ever got super drunk
(_) Went skinny dipping
(X) Lied about where you are going
(X) Ever lied about your age
(_) Ever been pantsed
(_) Flashed someone
(_) Had mono
(_) Beer bonged
(_) Got into a physical fight w/ a parent

leaving tm:D

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 01:26:25 GMT

i didnt got o school yesterday and the only reason i went today was because heather made me. lol. well i feel better but i still feel a little sick. i had a good day though surprisingly. i got attached by Zac, Andrea, Care, Sam, and Nicole. In science Zac, Andrea, and Care decided they needed to tickle me all through class then Sam tickled my neck then Nicole tickled me on the bus and omg... lol. too much tickling. so umm yeah. Me and Nicole and Dad are babysitting Drew tm then me and Nikita are spending the nite there and going to see my Uncle Scott and Aunt Beth and their kids. THEN CHRIS COMES HOME! woohoo! i cant wait to see him! hehe. i have so much to do before tm...ugh... ok well im gonna go talk online for a little longer than clean and pack. MUCH LOVE!
Emi

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 02:51:51 GMT

i dont think im gonna go to school tm... i dont feel good and im tired and ugh... :( ... im not gonna go... unless i wake up feeling better but i dont think i will so im gonna stay with dad.... gtg... ((cough, tear)) nite
Emi

home sick :(

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 17:59:59 GMT

ok last night was the best! omg! ok Me, Nikita, and Heather went to the last guys game ((we missed most of the JV's)) and we were so hyper! omg! Dad bought us Mt.Dew and baby bottle pop cady on the way there and of coure that's ALL SUGAR so ummm yeah. hehe. Ugh we sat on the wrong side again. we sat on the Summersworth Side and hahha... ok we were cheering SOOO loud. i mean we were the loudest ones there no joke! so then the other teams fans who were sitting RIGHT BEHIND US got mad and started yelling like we were but the three of us only got louder and it became a compotition. hehe. so then they got ALL of their teams fans to scream at once so then when they stopped screaming we'd try to scream louder than them. it was great but they were getting really mad at me though b/c i would scream so loud when they werent. But in the end we lost but thats ok b/c of two things...1) We're gonna beat their asses next season..and 2) we had a good season and thats all that matters to us. so Nicole sed good job Newmarket then i SCREAMED it and this hot blonde kid from the other team's fans was like THEY LOST! so i screamed WHO GIVES A SHIT IF THEY LOST THEY STILL DID GOOD AND HAD A GOOD SEASON and he just looked at me and all three of us starting laughing! it was awesome. Then while waiting for my dad to come Nicole being so SWEET...((cough cough)) hehe Pushed me into a random truck that was parked behind me then heather almost fell and i got all light headed and umm yeah. it was fun but one bad thing happened...this morning when i woke up i couldnt talk and my throat hurt so dad told me that i should stay home ((he thought i was sick)) and who am i to argue a day home from school?? hehe so i stayed home and slept untill 12:00 then my bro called from Collage and woke me up so now im writing in here. lol. OMG! TERRU I LOVE YOU! stupid guyz suck and so do certain "FRIENDS" and im sry u had to go through that!((if u want to know look at her lj from last night)). I hope ur day went so much better today and i hope u feel better :( . so umm yeah.. DANIELLE'S GETTING HER BRACES OFF TODAY! i didnt even remember she had braces till she told me this last night! lol. i know im such a loser... I'm her best friend and still i dont remember stuff. haha. sry hun i still love ya! hehe. omg... ugh. im starting to feel light headed again. O! Nicole might be staying at my house for the ENTIRE weekend b/c her mom is going away! WOOHOO! i hope her mom lets her stay here b/c its gonna be so much fun and on Saturday we're gonna babysit Drew ALL day and then on Sunday my sis and her husband are coming down here and coming for dinner, which means that me and Nikita will probably stay over night at Melissa's. hehe. i cant wait! i think i find out today if shes staying or not. i hope its a yes b/c i cancelled plans with SOnya b/c i thought Nikita was gonna be here. OMG! im so excited for my older bro to come home Sunday! i miss him soooooo MUCH! lol. ugh i have a hair appointment today and idk if i really wanna go... lol. ok well im gonna go now b/c i have to clean my room and i have other stuff to do. i might write again later. have a good day ppl. Much Love!
Emi

Valentine's Day

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 03:44:01 GMT

Its Valentine's day...when i got up i was in such a bad mood b/c i thought today was gonna suck... well it wasnt perfect b/c if it was a certain guy would be here right now but it was ok. Mom sent me a rose at school :D . it was so cute but ppl kept telling me they hate me b/c i got a rose and they didnt... ugh w/e ppl suck anyways. lol then i ran up to heather and gave her a huge hug and i think i scared her lol and i did the same thing to Taj but she didnt seem so freaked out b/c i always give her hugs. then in Science Care gave me chocolate hehe... imagine how hyper i was then hehe. but then after school i went to Nicole's till 4 then dad came and picked us up and brought us here. omg and we were so HYPER! my god. if any of u had seen how hyper we were u wouldnt thought we were on crack or something haha. it was great. then i talked to the one person i wanted to talk to all day :D and that made me feel so great hehe.so that made my day a hole lot better hehe. ((yes i know im such a dork)) lol. o well. o yeah and we went outside and danced in the snow a lil bit and Nicole was so out of it and hyper that she almost fell a couple of times then the lovely Zac called. hehe im glad me and him are bro and sis again hehe. it was great. i was so hyper he thought i was going insane... hehe ((no comment)) lol and umm yeah now im really bored so i think i might go to bed soon lol. tm is gonna be a fun day too well after school anyways hehe. bye bye. Much love!
Emi

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!---->((i still thing this holiday should die...hehe))

sighs

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 23:04:10 GMT

i havent written b/c i've been with Nicole since Thursday so i havent had time... omg it was so funny on Thursday nite me and Nikita were playing in the snow at like 7pm (yes i know we're losers) and the snow plow was about to drive by so we got snow balls and started throwing them at him and i hit the truck b/c i was closer so the guy drove by again 5 minutes later and again i was throwing more snowballs at him and he started throwing them at me :0 . it was so friggin funny. i was so shocked that he did that and Nikita was laughing at me so bad. lol. it was the highlight of our nite. then my dad took us out at 9:30 and got us ice crea, candy, and Mt.Dew...i think hes insane. then we had a two hour delay Friday b/c Nicole lept over so we had to get up at 5AM! so she could take her nebulizer then we went to school at 9:30. then we came home and talked online and listened to music and then went to mules madness which was great. haha Chuck is awesome haha. me and heather were so hyper and Zac was omg.... Zac was Zac. lol then we had to give heather, natosha, and drea a ride home...wow that was intersting. lol then me Nicole slept over again and we stayed up till 4 in the morning watching a Simple PLan dvd. hehe then we got up around 11:30 and her mom and her mom's "friend" rob took me, Nicole, and Rob's 12 yr old son Robby to jokers. haha good times... OMG! NICOLE THE ROCK CLIMBER GUYS! hahahaha. dotn worry casey i lik eu way more haha. then we went to a pet store then another pet store and the entire time me nicole and robby were in the back seat of the car and Robby was flirting with Nicole the entire time and it was so great... u had to be there and see Nicole's face. hahaha. then they took me home and Nicole just called me a few minutes ago and omg...it was so funny but i cant say wat was so funny b/c... i just cant haha. so umm yeah thats my exciting weekend. omg heather u made me feel so much better just by telling me that one thing. and i really wanna talk to casey but hes not on but it's all good b/c i have to clean my room anyways. hehe. so um yeah im outta here. lata peeps! much love!
Emi

P.S. KRISTEN IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU! YOU ROCK! hehehe... and Danielle umm yeah i get wat u mean but....ugh nvm i just dont want to talk about it anymore...

this is really from Friday.....

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 22:51:16 GMT

You are PUNK! U like being around those who are
really close to u. You get depressed most times
but you just wanna live!You have alot of
feelings and thoughts inside that you keep to
yourself! sometimes you dont know who to trust.
You have friends that believe in you and know the
real you, which means the most.
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You're a very angry, hateful person, not to mention
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Sleep Over with Nikita

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 03:11:17 GMT

well im so hyper and Nikita is sleeping over and STALKER SNOW PLOWER!!! i'll explain later. BYE! Muche love!
Emi

lalalala

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 03:17:48 GMT

lalalalalalalalala wow im extremely bored... OMG! Some friends are such bitches. they think the only reason im sad is b/c someone didnt IM me! THATS BULLSHIT! i do have other stuff on my mind than that shit! losers... ugh. im just so sick of certain ppl right now! hopefully we wont have school tm and if we do im so gonna ask to stay home. ok well i have to go. im sooooooooooo tired and im talking to one of the best ppl ever so BYE!
EMi

blah blah blah

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 01:58:51 GMT

blah blah blah.... i hate life and everyone living...well maybe not everyone but mostly. u know sometimes i think that maybe i would be better living with Melissa... no one would miss me... and its not like i wouldnt see my friends every other week or talk to them everyday.... not that they would care.... eh w/e. gtg i have hw and i have reading and other shit to do... lata!
emi

i hate missing people

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 02:53:37 GMT

ugh... i just want to sit here and cry. im losing my best friend and it sux. i miss her so much it isnt even funny. yeah i have other best friends but shes my true best friend and i really miss her so much. she just told me that shes gonna be way to busy to talk for like three months and im like in tears b/c we hardly talk already and now its gonna suck! I FUCKING HATE LIFE! O M F G!!!!! now im gonna go sit in the dark all by my lonesome self and cry b/c im stupid like that! LATA!
emi

SUPER BOWL!!!

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 03:26:49 GMT

PATRIOTS WON THE SUPER BOWL! WHOOT WHOOT! no surprise there! IN UR FACE EAGELS FANS! hahahaha....g'nite ppl! MUCH LOVE!
EMi

stupid parents

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 21:49:34 GMT

my dad is such an ass. ive been asking to paint my room since i was in like the 5th grade and now he just got done painting Craigs and he wont let me paint mine. i swear he favors my brother. asshole!!!!!!! eh w/e... i dont fucking care anymore. i get treated like crap and no one cares so why should i? i wish i was living back at melissa's!!! URRRRRRRRRRRRRR! gtg. bye
Emi

i fucking hate knowing shit!

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 04:40:52 GMT

one of my friends told me a huge secret that she wants me to keep secret but i know if i do shes gonna get sersiously hurt... i love it one my friends tell me stuff but when they want me to keep this kind of thing sercret i can do it but i also cant... o man... i just hope everything works out ok... :( ... so yeah... im just in the mood to cry... i know that sounds stupid but its true. im so sad and depressed and i dont know wat to do. i think im gonna go write in my diary... maybe that will help. idk... ugh... w/e.... im gonna go. im not in the mood to be on the comp so...lata! much love :(
emi

......................

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 23:33:04 GMT

Im so friggin tired and i havent really been in the mood to write but eh w/e. ive been really pissy and sad lately and i just want to scream and i want to punch someone! Grrr! idk wat to do anymore. i cant keep things all bottled up but i cant talk to anyone either. idk...things just suck and no one is making things any easier for me. i miss my best friend and it sux b/c i feel like she doesnt have time for me anymore b/c she has a life and i dont but im proud of her. i just miss her............. so umm yeah... tonight im just reading my book and talking online and hopefully tomorrow my lovely heather will be coming over. for now im all by myself(wat else is new there?). ok well im gonna go... much love
emi

ah...

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 03:21:06 GMT

school sucked! i was so fucking pissed all day but it got so much better the minute school let out b/c the lovely heather came over and then the one and only Kristen came over too :D . but im all sad now b/c Sonya has to cancel our sleep over for this weekend b/c she got a new work schedule and has to work all weekend :( . eh... once again i will be spending my weekend all alone and locked in my room! eh w/e im so used to it now....well im going to bed i dont feel very well... g'nite! much love
emi

O M F G!!!

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 03:58:08 GMT

DANIELLE U DONT HAVE TO BE STRONG FOR ME AND YOU DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME!!! IM FINE!!! DONT WORRY!!!!!!!

so i went to the game today (yes another one, im on a roll two games in a row! lol) and i went with Nicole and Heather and Brett hung out with us. it was REALLY interesting then i came home and watched One Tree Hill (C.M.M.---James Lafferty=TOTAL HOTTIES! :D ) and i talked to the one and only heather on the phone then i was online and yeah... i still have to clean my room so my girl heather can come over tm and KRISTEN THE BESTEST PERSON EVER IS COMING OVER FOR DINNER! WOOHOOO! lol. ok well i gtg its like 11:00 and i need SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!! (...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....) ok much love bye
emi

PEOPLE FRIGGIN SUCK!

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 02:28:43 GMT

omg ppl need to stop worrying about me! im FINE! NO NEED TO WORRY! URRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! so anyways...today once again sucked! but u know wat its all good now b/c im talking to the one person i want to talk to so.... yeah... i went to the b-ball game with Steph and Jean... it was really funny. i get into the game and i think i scared Steph with all my school spirit...ahhaha.. but yeah...the high light of my day was Ryan wearing a cheese hat then a Goofy hat! hahaha... i love that kid! hahaha. ok well im gonna go... SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BORED! bye
Emi

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 02:32:50 GMT

OK so today sucked! :( ... People can be so friggin harsh and not even notice it... lately i feel like no one really cares except a few people and i told this to one of my friends and i told them how i am always alone and shit and she basically pissed me off when she replied. no one knows everything about me but my friends act like they do and it pisses me off! ugh w/e! SOnya is sleeping over this weekend and we're going to the movies which is gonna be so great! that made my day so much better! Sonya is so awesome and she understands me more than most of my friends and even when she doesnt understand its still ok b/c she still helps me out without realizing it. so yeah... i think i just need a break from everyone... well not everyone but a lot of ppl. ive been talking to my older bro online too which makes me so happy b/c it means he really does care and all that jazz. So yeah... i dont feel very good. ok well i have to go so...Much love :( ...
Emi

O M F G !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 01:40:01 GMT

OMG! PEOPLE FUCKING SUCK! GO DIE OR EVEN BETTER SHOOT ME SO I'LL DIE!
emi